fiuuh...

heeey...it's been a moment...since i've written my latest scratches..
yeah..I ruined the novelist ambition thing...

hem..
however...still got sooooo many things to share these late months..
from those darkest days of college I had...the death of my fav teacher..
disaster of boyfriend..and elses...

today...am goin back from graveyards of probs...
expecting sweet welcoming arms from ****...but...shame..I was totally disapointed.
I arrived at my office door by afternoon...missing him so damly much...but hey..he remain in silence..
I smiled bitterly sweetened to him...called him over but hi didn't even put a glance on me...shooooooooo!!!
Then at afterhour-time, he asked me if I wanted to go home together...I said yes..but he suddenly gone...searched all over the office..but then..I saw his shoes in front of the Mosque..
I thought...he was prayin'..
So...as far as our relationship is hidden...I waited at the toilet...and after the prayer is over...I searched for him...but then...he wasn't there..

I text him...
he said:'if you mind going home with me...fine...just don't hide away from me...'
"@.@
I WAS AT THE TOILET!!!!!
WAITING FOR YOU!!!",
I screamed at the phone..

he said..."don't LIE!"

OK......he had just mentioned the thing I truly despite...
I AM NOT A LIAR!!!!

and now...I am sitting in the corner of my room...moaning those words out of my heart...

shit....he did a very good job in hurting me...
which it was a BAD SIGN

au revoir...
let me get some ice on eyes..